Finally seeing the “light”

I, like any other person serious about their future career, was worried about the path that I was taking to get there. At one point I felt like I was making all the wrong moves. Why? Because when I finally received a callback for an interview at a local news station I did not get the job. The job was for the position of an associate producer, which is an entry-level position. It’s one of the lowest, if not the lowest, positions that one could apply for at a news station on the news side. Not to mention it was a part-time, therefore, no benefits, whatsoever. Being turned down hurts. After finding out that I didn’t get the job, emotionally, I was a wreck. I felt like I wasn’t good enough, like I didn’t amount to anything. And although I knew none of those things that I felt were true, they felt very true for a short time period. So, I continued to ask myself : “Why was I rejected?” Well being that the job position for an associate producer was more on the technical side, the hiring manager stated that I lacked experience and that the courses that I was taking at my college were not “relevant” to the job position. That was probably the biggest slap in the face, you know? The whole reason why I’m even in the program is to be able to get a job in news. After that interview, I felt like pure garbage.

“After the interview, I felt like pure garbage.”

I felt like my four years in the US Navy didn’t display what a hard worker I am, what a reliable person it molded me into and how easily trainable I would be for a job that is in the field I want to make a career out of. It’s like the fact that I was so eager to learn and be molded into the producer that they needed didn’t account for anything. I couldn’t see what went wrong, and I thought maybe something was wrong with me, and I should either go to another school or back to the drawing board to decide what type of career would be good for me and the abilities that I have.

However, now, something has changed. It’s safe to say I’m sticking to my goals of becoming a reporter and working in the production field for news. I decided I would apply for an internship at the station and get the experience that I lacked. I decided, I will prove myself wrong, and hush those doubts I have, especially after the class I started on Monday, Intro to Broadcasting. The doubts that I had of me not taking the “relevant courses” are now gone. My professor has a background of working for ABC and CBS news stations as a journalist, producer, director and pretty much every position that can be held in the newsroom. Everything he stated about journalism and the history of broadcast, and on how the class was going to be taught and what it would consist of – just made sense. He also brought into the scope the purpose of the Converged Communications program, and how it is essential to have a knowledge of a little bit of everything dealing with communications. For instance, my Assembling Digital Media class. In that class, I worked with different types of digital media,  and was taught on how to establish and online presence. I also learned the background of how digital media is what it is today and how it is a essential for a communications major.

Now everything is coming together. Finally. I’m excited about the future, now, that it’s not even funny. No seriously, it’s not.

I’m finally starting to see the light again, and it pretty bright, if i may say so myself.

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7 comments

  1. Thats awesome Alba. I don’t want to say don’t worry but of course your human and its natural to have felt the way you did. First off, I think your amazing( yes even though you said I wasn’t African enough :)) You have amazing talent unbeknownst to you. I truly see you reaching above and beyond but first off you have got to shed self doubt and do not rely on the opinion of others. Sweetheart, if you were to see my program of degree, you would be like whattttttttttttttt?? I changed my major so many times because I didn’t know what I wanted to do. When my husband and I was living in Brunswick Maine, I finally got the chance to go to school after so many troublesome years with immigration. I decided I was going to be a dental hygienist, that sounded pretty good. Gurrrrrrrrrllllllllll I was amphed, excited , beyond excitement. I even got the navy to pay for my training through the MYCAA spousal program at the Dental Careers Institute in Maine. I went through the whole spiel, I was so impressed with instructors…untilllllllllllllllll I went on one of my field experiences and holy cow, I saw an oral surgeon pulling out some rotten teeth out this guy’s mouth, I almost passed out and to top if off we had to watch pictures of people who were in car accidents…horriffic… Now mind you I wasn’t go to be in that type of environment but nevertheless, it turned my stomach.
    Anyways I was too far into the program to come out so I graduated from the Dental Careers Institute with a certificate as a Dental Assistant with expanded function( Meaning I am able to do more than a regular dental assistant). I figure becoming a dental assistant would get my foot in the door. Well it did, but only my big toe and I was like ” I’m outttttttttttt) This isn’t for me.
    Flash forward, we move to Jax and I had a military advisor who confused the shit out of me. Everything I wanted to get into he made me feel like I didnt have a chance. He would say well its a long waiting period, Gurlllllllll just to give you an idea of how many times I changed my program heres a copy of my degree audit( I am surprised that financial aid hasn’t pulled the plug yet)
    ASSOCIATE IN ARTS 20091 GR Y 100%X *
    BS T100 EARLY CHILDHOOD EDUCATION 20121 AC Y 75%X *
    BS T400 CONVERGED COMMUNICATIONS 20132 AC Y Y 50%X
    AS 2203 EARLY CHILDHOOD MANAGEMENT 20091 AC Y 50%X
    AS 2156 NETWORKING SERVICES TECHNOLOGY 20102 AC Y 33%X
    AS 2153 COMPUTER INFORMATION TECH 20102 AC Y 25%X
    AS 2149 NURSING R.N. 20103 AC N
    AS 2300 DENTAL HYGIENE 20102 AC N
    AS 2389 INTERIOR DESIGN TECHNOLOGY 20103 AC Y
    AAS A300 DENTAL HYGIENE 20091 AC N
    TC 6946 INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY MGMT 20102 AC Y
    TC 6947 COMPUTER FORENSICS TECH 20102 AC Y
    TC 6948 ADVANCED NETWORK SUPPORT TECH. 20102 AC Y
    TC 6953 CUSTOMER SUPPORT SPECIALIST 20102 AC Y
    TC 6954 WEB DEVELOPMENT SPECIALIST 20102 AC Y
    TC 6955 DATABASE DEVELOPMENT SPECIALIS 20102 AC Y
    TC 6956 COMPUTER PROGRAMMING SPECIALIS 20102 AC Y
    TC 6945 INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY TECH. 20102 AC Y
    NC 8403 PERSONAL ENRICHMENT

    A ton load of shit aint it……So after I graduated in 2012 with my associates I went home for vacation and remember I told you my cousin Brucella does Broadcast Journalism back home? Well, I was with her the entire time and I was like wowwwwwwwwwwww…OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG…This is who I am, I am a speaker ( I love to talk). Even as a kid growing up, my report card would say : excellent, but talk too much, very good , very talkative and you get the gist right…So its only fitting that I go into something that highlights my natural abilities.
    One thing I can say and its hard because people are cruel, but watch yourself as you grow, love yourself,embrace what is special, true , passionate and wonderful about yourself and if anyone gives you the doubt to be anything other than who you are, tell them to kissssssssssssssss yo azzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.. Just kidding but seriously, you got skills and its getting sharper and sharper. Your dismissal or non acceptance for the job only added more wood to the fire.
    You have the fire, even though its not at is fullest yet..take your time and dont rush the process that is Alba….Your father in heaven has set unlimited success in your heart, and you will grow beautifully but its only with his help will Alba rise from the ashes…I like to think of myself as a phoenix bird: In Greek mythology, a phoenix or phenix (Ancient Greek φοίνιξ phóinīx) is a long-lived bird that is cyclically regenerated or reborn. Associated with the sun, a phoenix obtains new life by arising from the ashes of its predecessor. The phoenix was subsequently adopted as a symbol in Early Christianity. ( Wikipedia baby).
    Sweetheart your a phoenix, you will rise, its your nature to survive…You have are truly blessed more than you know..

    1. Tatika your amazing. Thank you for your kind words of encouragement. As I was reading the message I was just smiling and filled with more hope than you can imagine – except when you told me about your field experience I was a little taken a back! I can’t believe you changed programs so many times, and you never stopped. That’s amazing, and that takes real determination, and that’s just like more fuel to fulfill your goals! It gives me fuel just reading that. I absolutely love the words you have written hear. I feel like you hit it right on the head when you stated on how I sometimes I listen to others or doubt myself, or try to rush the process. Thank you. I was going to text you at 6:00am when I read your comment, and I decided I didn’t want you to kill me .. 😀

      Thanks again my love.

      1. Thats fine, I was up anyways. My body is insanity programmed, even if I am not doing it that morning. But you are very welcome….You are amazing, you know it and you are on your way.

      2. aw, I love you really. You should blog about your insanity journey. I’m interested, I don’t think I’d have the heart to do it. Running and lifting is pretty much my limit haha.

      3. I went to the gym yesterday with my husband and I my muscles are drained. I haven’t done insanity in two days…I am scared to even look at the dvd, cause I know Shaun T is , ” Hey you, get your butt over here” But seriously the weightlifting drained me and my legs are so sore.. Tomorrow I can get back to Shaun T and if you can run you can do insanity….hmmmmmm I don’t know insanity is a different beast, but I’m definitely sure you would love it.

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